Super Duper Goals!

This year is going to bring more and more challenges as I grow older but these are my goals for the brand new year to come.

Memorize 365 verses.
Quitting Bad Habits.
More Bible Meditation.
Waking up at 5:30 For Prayer.
Sleeping at 10:30 For Prayer.
More jogging with Singing
Sharing God's love more than before.
Reading books more and more.

All of this is to supplement my loving God even more than I did in 2009. Happy Decade everybody.

In 20 Years? In 30 Years? In 50 Years?

Dear God,

I am beginning to learn more about who I am in this world and how much you require of me. Lord I talk to people who used to profess you as their Lord... God how did they lose sight of who you are? God I never want to leave you and I'm sure they didn't want to either when they were my age. God please keep me in your hand. I know how weak I am. I know how deceiving this world is. I know that you are a God that loves me so much you are prepared to help me kill sin. I need you so much God. I don't want to end up without you. God you are Holy, Holy, Holy. You are almighty. You are so worthy of my life. Please help me to love you so that I might be bonded to you stronger than super duper glue. Help me to cleave to you. I want to sing your praises, your name with joy. God please. Please don't let me wander away. God I pray for those who lost sight of you to focus their eyes on Jesus. His love is so pure and so intense. It burns with passion for us... and we brush it off. Please forgive us Christ. Thank you for what YOU DO. What we do won't matter. Only what is done for you will matter. God I love you, but please do not let my flesh lead me away from you. Father don't leave me. In 20 years I want to be the man that you want me to be. Help me to prepare my life for you. In 30 years I want to serve you with joy. In 50 years I want to love you with all my mind, strength, and soul, and being. I want to love you so much Lord. Thank you God. When I die as all humans will... I want to hear your warm voice wrap around me saying well done good and faithful servant. Right now Lord I know I am not that good and faithful servant, but I will not let this hinder me from following you. Holy Spirit please come upon me and fill me till I'm pouring out more and more of you. God I give you my life. Not for people to be impressed. Not for the sake of my pride. God I want my aim to be to please you. Make me humble Lord. Take my life and grow me in your ways.

Yearning for God
E.J.

Merry X-mas?

What is this madness? Are we really too lazy to add the letters C-H-R-I-S-T? I'm not actually angry, but it saddens me to see the reality of how sinful we humans are. Before I didn't think anything really was wrong with this saying X-mas, but when you understand and embrace the Christmas story, the Christmas HISTORICAL event... you see why those six letters would mean something a little bit more than an X. I mean no one ever says HAPPY X-OWEEN or HAPPY X- YEAR. that's just weird. But to keep this short so you can enjoy the rest of your day. Don't belittle Christmas. Don't leave God out of your life. If you leave God out you leave the only true source of satisfaction and joy you will ever receive. SOOO ENJOY GOD'S GRACE! Our sins are atoned for by Christ's sacrifice. The perfect 100% GOD/100% man suffered and bore the wrath we deserve. Accept that. Repent and believe for the kingdom of God has drawn near. This is Christmas. Christmas is God not X-Mas.

Pride

Put to death the deeds of the flesh.

The root of all sin is pride and money.

The reason why we are prideful is because we believe that we are sufficient for all our needs.

We are not sufficient for all our needs.

Why do people commit suicide when they are surrounded by an unending loneliness?

Why do we cry when we don't know the answer to a problem?

Why are people stubborn even when an answer is clear in there face.

The answer: Pride.

Put to death the deeds of the flesh.

We must not rely on ourselves because it always leads to one thing.

death.Eternal suffering. Eternal loneliness. Eternal regret. Eternal death.

We must put to death the deeds of the flesh.

The fruit of the spirit is love peace patience kindness goodness faithfulness.

These are all produced outside of pride.

Pride will not let you produce this fruit.

Only the Holy Spirit can allow you and sufficiently provide for you the power to kill pride.

God is willing to give you the Holy Spirit.

But it is only given to those who ask for it faithfully and seek after it.

... God I am prideful. Lord you hate prideful people. Why would a six legged ant be prideful in its strength. In the same way you laugh and scoff at my foolish ways. Look at me i'm disgusting...regardless your grace abounds all the more. Regardless your love is shown all the more. Regardless your glory extends further than ever before. Your plans are amazing lord. Even in my sin you chose me. God take my pride. Take my sin. I give you my life. I love you God. Let the Church flourish in love for each other. Let the Church flourish for love for you THE GIVER not the gifts. There are many Christians who are fooled into thinking they are Christians... God please, please open there eyes. Christ is the legitimate king who deserves our lives and praise. Lord you uphold the entire universe by the word of your power. thank you. Kill our pride. Help us to mortify our pride. sin must be put down at its roots and pride is the my root sin.

I thank you God for the substitution and the grace given. Let me live my life according to your word. Praise be to the living,loving,eternal God. Amen

i dont give my grattitude enough

God i know your love is infinite. Let that sink in my soul. Forgive me for my iniquity. God only you can change my sinful nature. Lord thank you for being my deliverer. You give grace upon grace every moment of my life. Every time I sin grace is added up even more. God this is so comforting. Your promises are infinite,but Lord please help me to not be comfortable in sin. Lord i'm hating sin more and more everyday. Let me continue in this hatred and continue in the love you bestow with Christ,with promises,with family,with blessings,with suffering, with pain. With all these things you are still here. God you deserve something for all of these things. God you deserve my life and more. God thank you. you have my eternal gratitude. you have my life. You are an amazing deliverer God.

God i love you.

A merry monday( I sound like helen)

I probably didn't have a good Monday if someone else was in my shoes.
I took two tests that i probably didn't too well on. I honestly don't think i did well.
I also got in trouble in two classes for talking. The only good thing about today is that in the end
i still have Christ. God uses situations like this so that at the end of the day i remember i'm forgiven and that tomorrow is another day to glorify him and kill the sins that have appeared in the past. I thank God that i got in trouble in those classes because it taught me to respect my teachers. I thank God for criticism even if it is malicious because i learn to be humble. I thank God that i had trouble on my tests because it teaches me to humble myself and to not be self righteous. It also taught me to be more diligent in studies. God is using so many different situations to work for his good. I'm starting to love God more and more every day.

as i proofread this post i start to see that I'm saying I a lot. it shouldn't be about me. God is the one who receives the glory and honor and praise.


God... thank you for your many promises.
Thank you for saving me from myself.
I didn't choose you. You chose me to come to you.
I was delightful with mud, trash, dirt, but you showed me the most satisfying thing in the universe...You
God, thank you for forgiving my shortcomings.
Lord i fail so much,but you keep me in your hand where nothing can pluck me out.
You forgive me when i don't think of you.
You forgive me when i turn away from you.
Lord please change my heart.
I thank you for what you've already changed in my life.
Thank you for your perfect design in my body.
Thank you that day after day my soul is renewed and my body decays.
thank you for destroying my fears and continuing to destroy my fears.
I love you God.
forgive me for not always loving you God. you deserve it more than anyone in the universe.
God, you love not only me but everyone.
You love us all on mondays.
You love us all on tuesdays.
You love us all on wednesdays.
You love us all on thursdays.
You love us all on fridays.
You love us all on saturdays.
You love us all on Sundays.

Thank you God.

sick days

oh man i've been sick for the past 3 days and I missed school 3 times adding on to my other 2 days. I think God has really been teaching me to love my family. being at home so much forces me to deal with them every minute. At the same time I see my mother and father's care for me. The differences and similarities between my brother and I which pushes me over the edge in wanting to evangelize to the little vermin. I see my sister's growth as a Christian even through these crazy trials. It makes me want to encourage her even more to seek God more than she has been recently. I love my family. I know God has a purpose for all the crap that we are put through. and everyday i begin to see it little by little. So i've also been put under lots of trials while at home but thankfully i'm holding on to God. I need to continue because there are still times where i become a hypocrite and i pray that God will renew the right spirit within me. God please Cast me not away from your presence oh lord. Take not thy Holy Spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of my salvation. I keep asking God this. I need to kill sin. I will continue killing sin. Thank God for me being sick. I wouldn't have realized any of this if i wasn't sick. I love you God. I love you God. Thank you for letting me love you God.