Super Duper Goals!

This year is going to bring more and more challenges as I grow older but these are my goals for the brand new year to come.

Memorize 365 verses.
Quitting Bad Habits.
More Bible Meditation.
Waking up at 5:30 For Prayer.
Sleeping at 10:30 For Prayer.
More jogging with Singing
Sharing God's love more than before.
Reading books more and more.

All of this is to supplement my loving God even more than I did in 2009. Happy Decade everybody.

In 20 Years? In 30 Years? In 50 Years?

Dear God,

I am beginning to learn more about who I am in this world and how much you require of me. Lord I talk to people who used to profess you as their Lord... God how did they lose sight of who you are? God I never want to leave you and I'm sure they didn't want to either when they were my age. God please keep me in your hand. I know how weak I am. I know how deceiving this world is. I know that you are a God that loves me so much you are prepared to help me kill sin. I need you so much God. I don't want to end up without you. God you are Holy, Holy, Holy. You are almighty. You are so worthy of my life. Please help me to love you so that I might be bonded to you stronger than super duper glue. Help me to cleave to you. I want to sing your praises, your name with joy. God please. Please don't let me wander away. God I pray for those who lost sight of you to focus their eyes on Jesus. His love is so pure and so intense. It burns with passion for us... and we brush it off. Please forgive us Christ. Thank you for what YOU DO. What we do won't matter. Only what is done for you will matter. God I love you, but please do not let my flesh lead me away from you. Father don't leave me. In 20 years I want to be the man that you want me to be. Help me to prepare my life for you. In 30 years I want to serve you with joy. In 50 years I want to love you with all my mind, strength, and soul, and being. I want to love you so much Lord. Thank you God. When I die as all humans will... I want to hear your warm voice wrap around me saying well done good and faithful servant. Right now Lord I know I am not that good and faithful servant, but I will not let this hinder me from following you. Holy Spirit please come upon me and fill me till I'm pouring out more and more of you. God I give you my life. Not for people to be impressed. Not for the sake of my pride. God I want my aim to be to please you. Make me humble Lord. Take my life and grow me in your ways.

Yearning for God
E.J.

Merry X-mas?

What is this madness? Are we really too lazy to add the letters C-H-R-I-S-T? I'm not actually angry, but it saddens me to see the reality of how sinful we humans are. Before I didn't think anything really was wrong with this saying X-mas, but when you understand and embrace the Christmas story, the Christmas HISTORICAL event... you see why those six letters would mean something a little bit more than an X. I mean no one ever says HAPPY X-OWEEN or HAPPY X- YEAR. that's just weird. But to keep this short so you can enjoy the rest of your day. Don't belittle Christmas. Don't leave God out of your life. If you leave God out you leave the only true source of satisfaction and joy you will ever receive. SOOO ENJOY GOD'S GRACE! Our sins are atoned for by Christ's sacrifice. The perfect 100% GOD/100% man suffered and bore the wrath we deserve. Accept that. Repent and believe for the kingdom of God has drawn near. This is Christmas. Christmas is God not X-Mas.

Pride

Put to death the deeds of the flesh.

The root of all sin is pride and money.

The reason why we are prideful is because we believe that we are sufficient for all our needs.

We are not sufficient for all our needs.

Why do people commit suicide when they are surrounded by an unending loneliness?

Why do we cry when we don't know the answer to a problem?

Why are people stubborn even when an answer is clear in there face.

The answer: Pride.

Put to death the deeds of the flesh.

We must not rely on ourselves because it always leads to one thing.

death.Eternal suffering. Eternal loneliness. Eternal regret. Eternal death.

We must put to death the deeds of the flesh.

The fruit of the spirit is love peace patience kindness goodness faithfulness.

These are all produced outside of pride.

Pride will not let you produce this fruit.

Only the Holy Spirit can allow you and sufficiently provide for you the power to kill pride.

God is willing to give you the Holy Spirit.

But it is only given to those who ask for it faithfully and seek after it.

... God I am prideful. Lord you hate prideful people. Why would a six legged ant be prideful in its strength. In the same way you laugh and scoff at my foolish ways. Look at me i'm disgusting...regardless your grace abounds all the more. Regardless your love is shown all the more. Regardless your glory extends further than ever before. Your plans are amazing lord. Even in my sin you chose me. God take my pride. Take my sin. I give you my life. I love you God. Let the Church flourish in love for each other. Let the Church flourish for love for you THE GIVER not the gifts. There are many Christians who are fooled into thinking they are Christians... God please, please open there eyes. Christ is the legitimate king who deserves our lives and praise. Lord you uphold the entire universe by the word of your power. thank you. Kill our pride. Help us to mortify our pride. sin must be put down at its roots and pride is the my root sin.

I thank you God for the substitution and the grace given. Let me live my life according to your word. Praise be to the living,loving,eternal God. Amen

i dont give my grattitude enough

God i know your love is infinite. Let that sink in my soul. Forgive me for my iniquity. God only you can change my sinful nature. Lord thank you for being my deliverer. You give grace upon grace every moment of my life. Every time I sin grace is added up even more. God this is so comforting. Your promises are infinite,but Lord please help me to not be comfortable in sin. Lord i'm hating sin more and more everyday. Let me continue in this hatred and continue in the love you bestow with Christ,with promises,with family,with blessings,with suffering, with pain. With all these things you are still here. God you deserve something for all of these things. God you deserve my life and more. God thank you. you have my eternal gratitude. you have my life. You are an amazing deliverer God.

God i love you.

A merry monday( I sound like helen)

I probably didn't have a good Monday if someone else was in my shoes.
I took two tests that i probably didn't too well on. I honestly don't think i did well.
I also got in trouble in two classes for talking. The only good thing about today is that in the end
i still have Christ. God uses situations like this so that at the end of the day i remember i'm forgiven and that tomorrow is another day to glorify him and kill the sins that have appeared in the past. I thank God that i got in trouble in those classes because it taught me to respect my teachers. I thank God for criticism even if it is malicious because i learn to be humble. I thank God that i had trouble on my tests because it teaches me to humble myself and to not be self righteous. It also taught me to be more diligent in studies. God is using so many different situations to work for his good. I'm starting to love God more and more every day.

as i proofread this post i start to see that I'm saying I a lot. it shouldn't be about me. God is the one who receives the glory and honor and praise.


God... thank you for your many promises.
Thank you for saving me from myself.
I didn't choose you. You chose me to come to you.
I was delightful with mud, trash, dirt, but you showed me the most satisfying thing in the universe...You
God, thank you for forgiving my shortcomings.
Lord i fail so much,but you keep me in your hand where nothing can pluck me out.
You forgive me when i don't think of you.
You forgive me when i turn away from you.
Lord please change my heart.
I thank you for what you've already changed in my life.
Thank you for your perfect design in my body.
Thank you that day after day my soul is renewed and my body decays.
thank you for destroying my fears and continuing to destroy my fears.
I love you God.
forgive me for not always loving you God. you deserve it more than anyone in the universe.
God, you love not only me but everyone.
You love us all on mondays.
You love us all on tuesdays.
You love us all on wednesdays.
You love us all on thursdays.
You love us all on fridays.
You love us all on saturdays.
You love us all on Sundays.

Thank you God.

sick days

oh man i've been sick for the past 3 days and I missed school 3 times adding on to my other 2 days. I think God has really been teaching me to love my family. being at home so much forces me to deal with them every minute. At the same time I see my mother and father's care for me. The differences and similarities between my brother and I which pushes me over the edge in wanting to evangelize to the little vermin. I see my sister's growth as a Christian even through these crazy trials. It makes me want to encourage her even more to seek God more than she has been recently. I love my family. I know God has a purpose for all the crap that we are put through. and everyday i begin to see it little by little. So i've also been put under lots of trials while at home but thankfully i'm holding on to God. I need to continue because there are still times where i become a hypocrite and i pray that God will renew the right spirit within me. God please Cast me not away from your presence oh lord. Take not thy Holy Spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of my salvation. I keep asking God this. I need to kill sin. I will continue killing sin. Thank God for me being sick. I wouldn't have realized any of this if i wasn't sick. I love you God. I love you God. Thank you for letting me love you God.

All things work together for God's good...

There have already been a few accounts of Pastor Ed's incident. And God's divine appointment for Alex Hong's first sermon,but this is my account of what happened. I was asked to do this by a friend... Honestly I didn't wanna do it but I'll try. BTW this is really long... I dont care if you read or not, but this is everything that happened to me that day. You can just fast forward to the climactic part if you don't have patience though. It's your choice.

Alright another morning another Sunday. I felt so relaxed lying in bed...I didn't want to get up,but I'm reminded that my Father is calling me in church. I reach for my phone and check my missed calls... OHH CRAP I NEED A RIDE TO SUNDAY SCHOOL! I call my kuya buzz frantically realizing he had already called me responding to my late night request for a ride. He picks up telling me he just got up also...(sigh of relief) I go to get ready. I had a pleasant morning thinking ahead.In my head I was very comfortable. Now that I look back on this I realize it shouldn't be too comfortable. I sing songs with my kuya buzz as we try getting his "poor excuse of a radio" working. We arrive 30 minutes late... and I quickly get to my seat hoping pastor Henry doesn't spot me out(he did).

I listen to the lesson from my Tito Vic Bonus. I learn about the stewardship of time. I learn to use my body for Christ and how I must present my body as holy and blameless before God. We end the class late again and we all rush to memorize the verse. We end up cheating... or forgeting... oh how we need to pump that Spiritual iron. We sing our sunday school song. those wonderful wonderful sunday school songs. Right after we head outside to fellowship where laughs and edification takes place.

Then it starts. The service begins and I struggle to figure out where I should sit. I choose to sit on the closest table to the front so I could take notes. It was a good day to take notes. We listened to Alain's first praise and worship on Sunday accompanied by Ryan's amazing guitar playing, kuya Alvin's sick beats on the box, wind chime... cymbal thingy and Ate Faye's usual excellent singing. We all sit and watch Alex take the lead in singing hymns ( I was secretly laughing hearing Alex sing for the congregation) and scripture reading. And the big man walks up to the pulpit.

There he is. As prominent as ever. I had just told him his new haircut made him look like a stud.(Okay no I didn't but I did compliment him) To be honest I wasn't completelly attentive to his lesson I was dazed at first watching him up there sort of in my own world. I forgot what I was thinking of. I remember why I sat down on the tables and so I take out a pen.

I write my title Pastor Ed Ormeo

I listen to his words and all I hear is..."All things work together for God's good to..." Tita Daybelen screams...I look up just to see Pastor Ed's voice trail off... he hits the floor.... I hear everyone in the building (mostly the front) yells. They crowd around him and I can't even see Pastord Ed.(In my head I'm thinking STOP CROWDING HIM... I dont know to me it seemed like it made the situation worse. but it just showed how many people love Pastor Ed) I start to see people like Leon and Alex stand up and move a little closer to see if their friend was okay... Melissa whispers to Kristine" PRAY!" I hear Tito Joey yell "Call 911" I don't actually know who called 911 but my father tells me later my mom was the one who called.(Later I thought...wow my mom is quick. She was also the same person who called 911 when Kayla's head was bleeding when we played baseball) Aside from all this what the heck did I do...


I just sat there.

What the heck was going on. I was still waiting. Waiting for his words to continue from where he left off,but he didn't have to. The words he said as he fell were true and didn't need to be continued. The verse he stated as he fell. Romans 8:28 This was happening for a reason. All the people in this Church would be impacted and changed from this moment.. for God's good to those who love Him. God was amazing. I began to pray.

"God you are sovereign. Pastor Ed loves you. We love Pastor Ed. Lord let your will be done above all,but please give us more time."

I open my eyes with my pen still ready to write. I'm still in bewilderment sitting there with my head on my hand leaning on my elbow. Then the incredible happens... He gets back up. (I find out later that he was consicous when he fell. he got dizzy and lost balance...but this has happened before) They give him a chair to sit in and he just sits there and I see the remorse in his eyes. ( I think he didn't want the Church to worry about him and he was kinda hating his body at the moment) The church did love him so.

I was thinking that maybe Church service was over and I was going to cloes my notebook and I heard his voice go "ahh where was I"

WHAT THE HECK! DIDN'T HE ALMOST JUST DIE! I laugh uneasily in my head thinking this is service. This is a servant's heart. This is the reason why Pastor Ed is loved by so many people. In my heart I prayed to God to let the church serve like Pastor Ed. The paramedics arrive while he is preaching and he cracks a joke... oh Pastor Ed..."Do you want to take my blood pressure" The paramedics laugh a bit and retort" We want to take you sir" Pastor Ed stands up and walks to his corner and says "Alex continue the sermon for me."

AHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

I don't know if I should laugh or not,but Alex's facial expression and body language made me laugh extremely hard. To my surprise Alex stands up and slowly approaches the pulpit. He stands there for a second and says... "This is awkward" he doesn't know where to continue,but he ends up saying" That was service to the church"

Pastor Ed leaving and leaving his example of service to the church impacted me so much. That the sermon Alex continued rang in my head so much stronger and clearer. The church is one family... if one falls we all fall...if one is on fire we are all on fire. You joining a church is your demonstration of love to Christ. If you serve a brother or sister, you serve Christ. Service of the Church. Joining a Church. Christ's love. The love that we have to imitate to our brothers and sisters. I was rebuked. I was convicted. I needed to act on this conviction. I had to apply it.

I look back on my notes and Pastor Ed's words are still written there in black ink. Those words are true through good times and bad times. God is amazing.

"All things work together for God's good."

Rebuke

Do you know how to demonstrate some amazing love to your brothers and sisters.

Let me tell you a secret...
It's when you
REBUKE

Okay you may be thinking "WHAT!??!?!!" and at first i felt that way too... Also before I go further let me elaborate. When I say REBUKE I don't mean to look for opportunities to show someones flaws...that's just mean. What I do mean is to sharpen each other.

Proverbs 27:17 NIV (its in the Bible as Mikey P would say)

"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."

Stop and read that again. "As iron SHARPENS iron" I don't know about you but if i was iron... and i was rubbing against another piece of iron that would... hurt a lot, but the overall result is beautiful. Two sharpened irons that are ready for cutting,slashing,and mortifying sin.(killing sin) This is what the church is for. There are no such things as lone Christians. Christians that try to walk alone... to be frank will die. Rebuking one another is not easy. It hurts. But know that your brother or sister is loving you in this action. They do not want to see you dying spiritually even though you may not see it. This is one of the biggest demonstrations of love someone can perform on you. Reminding you of Christ and setting you back on that path towards God's righteousness. Do you see the love? Can you really see the love in this?

Another thing to be mindful of is that you should never rebuke out of pride or hate. Also when you need to repent yourself.

Matthew 7:3-5

"3Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?4 How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."

Right here... This passage and the picture above are both clear examples of what you should not do. This passage is not saying "Don't Judge" It is saying to judge,BUT be sure you fix yourself first before you work on helping your brother or sister. God wants us to love each other by watching out for each other. Remember to be loving when you rebuke and to use the Bible which is profitable for reproof. Show Christ in rebuking them. Point them back to our salvation in Christ. God is amazing in his design of the church.

Let us show Christ's love in the Church and continue destroying sin day by day. Amen

i dont have alot of time.

Alright i have a very large project for my geography class to finish up right now but i'll leave this short.

God is faithful.
God is ETERNALLY faithful.
God is Justice
God is Perfection
God is Love
God is Love
God is Love
God is patience
God is FORGIVENESS
God is NOT surprised with our disobedience.
God wants us to be joyful in him.
God does not want us to sin.
God demonstrates love with Christ
God demonstrates love by the WORD of his power.
God gave us a book of wisdom for the Christian.
God is omnipotent and omniscient and ALL powerful
God is creative.
God is kind.
God is everything good.
God has a giving heart.
God is funny.
God is real
God will be glorified no matter what.
God is love.
God loves you with such an intensity you and I cannot comprehend it. No amount of words can adequately capture the essence of God's love.
God is amazing.

I wanted to take this blog just to talk about God. In High School there is stress. Even more stress in College. EVEN more stress as an adult. So as you read this I want to clarify that this is the God that we have. God is bigger than any problem that you can fathom. Don't be caught up in problems and worries. Right now please take at least 15 minutes to look at God. You may not even feel anything,but please just look at God's glory. It really is everywhere.

busy

i'll try to blog when i can. :) BUT you can delight yourself in this grrreeaaaat verse.

2 Corinthians 4:16
So we do not lose heart because though our outer self is wasting away our inner self is being renewed day by day.

Everlasting.

I wasn't able to grasp what everlasting love is,but dang God exercises it everyday on us. We aren't worthy. Why and How does God continually love us? That is a mystery that I'm glad I don't understand because it shows us more of God's power. Praise God for his love that is new every morning. Every morning I still hear God's voice calling me." Come follow me and you shall see." If God is calling you please do not forsake his call. He deserves everything from you. He loves you even before the foundations of the Earth he planned our salvation in Christ. This is everlasting love. Come to him please.

Our Love vs. God's Love

Ding ding ding.

Alrighty now Let us introduce our two Fighters.

In the left corner we have Our Love weighing in at a measly 67 pounds wearing raggedy shorts and pillows for gloves.... IN OUR right corner we have God's Love weighing in at ..... hey...the scale just broke.... wearing GOLDEN/ BLINDING WHITE SHORTS.

LET'S GET READY TO RUUUUUUUUMBLE!!!

Our Love
Do you know what love is? Well lets think for a second. Isn't it that sentimental feeling you have for a girl or a boy. Isn't it that warm and fuzzy emotion engraved into our heart. Isn't it what marriages and dating is all about. This is but a small and inaccurate view of love. This is our modern day society's view on love. Our heart may think it knows what love is,but in fact it is deceived very easily. Have you ever thought that a boy or girl was "the one", or liked a person a lot only to be disappointed and left with a broken,scarred heart. In this instance your heart was deceived. It was tricked into believing that it knew love. Our love fails to see things the way God does. It constantly tries to say that it is the "real deal", but if you dig deeper you would see that love in our society is trying to find that "fuzzy" feeling or that status with other people. If you look EVEN closer you would realize that you are just trying to exalt yourself. Our love is a disgusting and ultimately condemning love.

God's Love
I think Frederick M. Lehman describes God's love very well. Why don't you read it?

"The Love of God"

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell
It goes beyond the highest star
And reaches to the lowest hell
The guilty pair, bowed down with care
God gave His Son to win
His erring child He reconciled
And pardoned from his sin

Could we with ink the ocean fill
And were the skies of parchment made
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry
Nor could the scroll contain the whol
Though stretched from sky to sky

O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints' and angels' song

Does this show you enough of God's love? I don't think so. To show you even more. Let me take you back 2000 years ago when God demonstrated his love. God came down from Heaven lived a perfect life as Jesus as 100% man and 100% God and did something that changed your life, my life, and everybody else's life. He shook his head in loving pity at our poor excuse of love and to add on to it took our disgusting sins. What he did with the sins was incredible. This was love. He took the sins and blamed it on himself. Jesus bore the infinite wrath of a Holy,Just, and Powerful God. NOT only did he bore the wrath, but the perfect life he lived was given to us as an exchange for our sins. This is INTENSE love,but even as I speak God still works. What the heck is what I thought at first. How the heck is God still working?God is working in us Christians life as well. Even when we sin over and over and over and over and over and over and over again he repeatedly forgives and forgets our sins. He constantly says to me " E.J. it is alright I am still your father.I have forgiven you son. Come back to me E.J. Don't lose sight of me. Come. RUN TO MY ARMS" This is what God says to us EVERYDAY! Even to those who do not believe this message God exercises love on you. He holds you up with his righteous right hand and by the word of his power. He wants to turn your dead soul into a living breathing creature that yearns for him. And once he starts the work in you, He finishes.

So to Christians please do not lose sight of God's faithfulness. Remember His ETERNAL and PERFECT love. Don't think no one understands you. JESUS UNDERSTANDS! HE WAS A HUMAN TOO. Keep your eyes on him. Run to him. Be joyful in him.

For non- beleivers please rethink your view. If you have felt empty. If you have ever yearned for someone to really love you I beg you to turn to God. God will satisfy. Nothing on this Earth will satisfy you fully except God.

DING DING DING

AND IN A NOT SO STUNNING TURN OF EVENTS. GOD'S LOVE HAS TRIUMPHED OVER OUR LOVE!! IN A FIRST ROUND FIRST SECOND KO!!!

Unity

Thanks to the help of a friend and prayer and more importantly God I realized that I am not going to reach perfection and that these feelings were being whispered by Satan. I was buying into his game and succumbing to his trap. I learned that I must take every thought captive for Christ. I also belittled the power of the cross. Oh my gosh I am so sorry God for forgetting how powerful you are.

Finally I learned that I am not alone in my problems and that I can talk to people. Especially my accountability partners. I feel so stupid that I did not go talk to them. I need to talk to them all the time. Most of all I learned to talk to God about these things first. He must be my first resort. Dang God is great.

Things I am going to start doing.

1. Seek Knowledge for the efforts in evangelism
2. Seek love more than knowledge so I can use knowledge wisely.
3. Seek more unity in the Church so that we all don't feel alone in my walk like I just did.
   
4. LOVING GOD MORE!!!

overwhelmed?dying spiritually?despondancy? what is this?

I really don't understand this feeling, but when it arises I have the weirdest mood. I don't understand it much as I said earlier so I probably will sound very confusing and inarticulate. Well here it goes.

I feel tired and weary.
I feel guilty of my failures.
I'm having a hard time being joyful.
I am not always seeing the joy in my purpose for God.
I feel like I'm getting attacked by so much work.
I feel like I want to drop my hobbies because of criticism.
I feel like my pride needs to be put to an end.
I want Christ to give me joy.
I want the Holy Spirit to fill me more.
I want to stop complaining(yet here I am)
I want someone to talk to anytime I need it.
I want to stop having wants because I know God can provide.
I want relief from God.
I want to be a spiritual leader.
I want to share the grace of God.

okay you might have gotten bored about my complaints and I know I should not complain,but this feeling has been nagging me and when I put it off it gets worse. I'm glad I still have a will to put an end to these bad feelings. And I'm glad I am trying to look to God in this time, but I feel so lacking and needing of growth. I mentioned I want to drop hobbies because of criticism. I need to really forget about the criticism and think of that criticism in a way that I can better myself next time, but lately I've been a child in my thinking when I received it. This post shows that I have a lot of growing to do. Please pray for me if you read this.

Sinful Heart Remade By E.J. Cabasal/Originally sung by Zee Avi

Your love comes down as seen when we have big frowns
We try to save ourselves but we fall down down down
You wait for us: it's been a long time now,
We still believe we’re right
Even though you give your son
I rest my case I will always lose to fate
And you know how much I need to turn around 'round 'round,
Sinful heart, Sinful heart tries to keep away from God
Sinful heart, Sinful heart His light will shine when you go hide,
Sinful heart, my Sinful heart is gettin' just a little harder
Sinful heart, Sinful heart of mine.
And then we come with the broken heart of ours and we give our life to God
So he forgives our sin
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Forgiven heart, Forgiven heart all because of Jesus Christ
Forgiven heart, Forgiven heart shadows are gone because of light
Forgiven heart, my Forgiven heart is getting just a little softer
Forgiven heart, Forgiven heart of mine, for Christ, for Christ, for Christ, for Christ, for Christ

the gift of our bodies.

Our bodies are such blessings that i use for the wrong reasons. Everyday i'm at school and i have a very big job. A job so important that if i did not complete people would die.

I used my body for the wrong reason. I did not use it when i had the chance to complete God's mission for me. I used it to walk away from opportunities to share the grace of God. I used it to view things that were God's creation in a sinful and inconsiderate way. I used it to speak disgusting words to insult and tear down instead of build up. I used it to indulge in things i didnt need. I used it to listen to things i could have tuned out. I am still a sinful and disobedient vessel.

I read in 1 corinthians about our new bodies that will be prepared for those who loved God. I want to prepare my life for that new body that God has waiting for me, but i keep pushing it away being an ignorant child. God please change my heart and help me to use my body as the holy tool you intended for me to be. LORD I NEED YOU!! I've tried repeatedly to change myself but i cannot. i want to truly use my body for God

I thank God because even though i am clearly not perfect and i try (and fail) to be the servant he wants me to be. God forgives me of my shortcomings through the one and only Jesus Christ.

Let my life be a sweet sweet sound. Please Change my heart o God. I love you God. I love you God. I love you God

washed away.

I am a sinful,disgusting, dirty piece of scum.
I honestly don't understand why a God will spend his time on me.
I praise God that he does forgive me and that he is sovereign over my life.
I have a new hope and peace I did not have before.
My anxieties about the future,school,relationships, and more importantly sin are washed away.
They are washed away in his cleansing flow.
I cannot fathom his love.
His love is intensely far beyond what I can even perceive about love.
I don't have a need for worries.
When trials come I can say once again to Satan's face.
It is well with my soul.

Thank you for the cross, your love, and for being who you are Oh, God.

Embrace Surrender

I had an absolutely splendid day at school today. There were a few mishaps and some funny moments but I embraced them.

Hmm... Embraced. When I think of the word embraced I think of the song Made To Worship by Chris Tomlin. There is a line in that song that really makes me think about Christianity.

" When you and I embrace surrender and you and I choose to believe you and I will see who we were meant to be"

Wow that is such a stupid line! It seems like it does not make any sense at all right? I mean how can a person embrace surrender? After I thought about it it makes complete sense and is very sound in doctrine. The Christian life does include you to surrender everything you have to God. The Christian life would require you to die to the world and to nail the deeds of flesh to the Cross. This sounds like a horrible thing, but when we do this and we do this with joy its as if Jesus enlarges and everything else is nothing but a small speck. Once we embrace,enjoy,and truly love surrendering our life we will be able to see who God intended for us to be.

Thinking about this made me in awe of God because of the recent message by my Pastor Ed. He spoke about Jesus death and resurrection.It was something that needed to be preached to me over and over again because I forget how much God loved us and about how much Jesus gave up for us lowly scum.

God is an almighty, perfect, holy, God that upholds the entire universe by the word of his power,but he decided to become the disgusting beings we are. That was love in itself. So when I see how much he suffered on that cross for my sins in my heart I am so glad to surrender my life to Jesus because I know that when I die I can walk into Heaven with my sins atoned because of Jesus who bore all of this wrath from God that I deserved. Knowing this is a such a great comfort. Knowing this washes away my anxieties. Knowing this makes me want to be more like Christ.

So now knowing this I am trying to go through School preaching the Gospel to myself, and surrendering more of my life to Christ.

-I can now say It is Well, It is Well with my Soul

people, Bible. God

I enjoy talking to people. It gives me new perspectives about life,but more importantly i learn how to kill sin more effectively. Too keep this blog short and sweet. Talking to people will grow you. Oh and when i say talking i dont mean like this

Person 1- HEY DUDE
Person 2- YO WHATSUP gtg man i'm gonna crash on my bed right now see yah later.
Person 1- Alrighty dude! bye

I meant deep and actual, factual, truthful conversation. Conversations are blessings.

Another of the greatest ways to learn and most effective that i have such a hard time keeping up with is reading the bible. You hear it so much but it is the best book on my shelf.

God in my life has once again proven more than enough that he is capable of controlling every aspect of my life. I truly beleive it is a miracle i can even blog and tell people about myself. I should really count it all joy.

Keep praying. Keep reading. Keep Enjoying God more and more is my goal for the rest of this summer.

she'll be coming around the corner

School is just around the corner and i can smell it. It smells like a smoggy train coming to run me over. Okay just kidding. Actually its weird because this year i have a totally different attitude about returning to school. There will be so many new opportunities to love God, rejoice, suffer, and most importantly EVANGELISE. God has been pressing this on me for the longest time and i'm finally going to answer him as he has been faithful to me throughout my life. I hope the Holy Spirit fills me up soooo much that i'm overflowing with it and that everywhere I go I let the Spirit use me.

God is good.God is good. God is good.

Emmanuel Cabasal AKA Little Brother

I was beaten by my little brother at pokemon for the first time in my life which took alot of patience because he gloated in my face,but thankfully God is teaching me to love him even more. gaah he is a pain though. oh i dont know if this is a good enough post soo i'll just end this with a story about me and my brother.

One day my brother and I were sleeping in our parents room because we knocked out watching tv. I was still awake,but i heard a very faint but audible giggle. I turned to look at my brother and he was apparently laughing while he was sleeping. I ended up waking him up but it was very weird. soo i hope that made this post a little bit better by telling you a little bit more about my brother.

sigh

Sigh #1-My sister moved out of the house today,and i found out that i'll be seeing my niece and nephew very little now. Today it really hit me that i'm getting older and things aren't going to stay the same. God has really been telling me lately that I should not lean on my own understandings and really focus on him,because the world will pass away and the only things that will stay are God and the people that were saved by grace through faith.

Sigh #2- I' found out that a girl i had alot of feelings for has feelings for someone else and i am really giving my full trust in God that he will provide me with someone in the future. I am praying that God will help me to not be selfish and to accept his plans with my life. God will provide me with everything i need PTL.


I love how an almighty God is always there for me to lean on.

Battling Pride

I've been reading a book called Battling Unbeleif which is a book about battling certain sins. Its written by John Piper and it is basically a snipet of a bigger book called Future Grace also written by John Piper. Today I was reading about the different kinds of Pride and Anxiousness and how to kill the sin.

What is Pride?

Pride is the opposite of humility. Pride is when we neglect God and the runner-up god takes Gods place namely us humans. The world we live in is very hostile to humility. The place that you would probably and normally see humility applauded is with God. Where God is humility follows. John Piper says that humility is like a shadow. When God goes humility goes too. So knowing that our world today does not give a pat on the back to humility very often shows that we are living in a world hostile to humility.

People tend to boast in three main things.

1. Their Might
2. Their Wisdom
3. Their Riches

Each one of these things is a competitor in our hearts against God. They are all calling us to take satisfaction in ourselves. They all tempt us into thinking that God isnt the ultimate satisfaction and that we can find more happiness in ourselves which is very very wrong, but to admit that your satisfaction and source of joy comes from an outside being would be have to be radically humbling.

So how do we kill these sins?

Answer: We cannot kill any of these sins by ourselves. The cure to these sins and any other sins are faith in future grace. Faith that the almighty God of the universe has caught you in his grace and will keep sustaining you for the rest of time through the Cross. We have faith in this future grace and find our satisfaction in his promises of future grace(Isaiah 41:10, Romans 8:28, Matthew 28:20, Luke 12:32,Psalm 23:6,Psalm84:11, Philippians 4:19) rather than the lies of sin.

Boasting and Self-Pity

These are both manifestations of pride. Boasting is the response of being prideful in one's success.Self-Pity is the response of being prideful in one's suffering. Boasting sounds self-sufficient, Self-Pity sounds self-sacrificing. The reason I mention this is because you must be very discerning around self-pity. Self-pity doesnt come from unworthiness. It comes from unrecognized unworthiness.

Anxiety is a camoflauged Pride.

How is anxiety a form of pride?In Isaiah 51:12-13 God says "I, even I, am He who comforts you Who are you that you are afraid of man who dies And of the son of man who is made like grass, That you have forgotten the LORD your Maker, Who stretched out the heavens And laid the foundations of the earth, That you fear continually all day long because of the fury of the oppressor, As he makes ready to destroy? But where is the fury of the oppressor?" So what does this have to do with anxiety being pride? God is rebuking Israel for their fear of man. He is saying that their fear of man is an anxiety that is a form of pride because it shows that you dont have trust the God who laid the foundations of the Universe with your life,but rather trust your protection to yourself even though you know that you cant control the future. You would rather trust in your fragile self rather than the sturdy future grace of God.

So what is a practical way of getting rid of this anxiousness?

How can I humble myself and rid myself of this pride?

Peter gives an answer in 1 Peter 5:6-7 "Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you." John Piper says notice the grammatical cconnection between veres 6 and 7. " Humble yourselves...under the mighty hand of God...casting all your anxieties on him." Verse 7 was not a new sentence it was a subordinate clause. "Humble yourselves...[by]casting all your anxieties on him" So a way to humble yourself is by giving your worries away to God,by having trust in the future grace of God.

Faith and Pride

Our pride will not want to admit that the remedy is trusting in someone who is wiser and stronger. Or in other words pride is a form of unbeleif and will not want to trust in future grace. Faith admits the need of help. Pride will not. Faith will ask God to give help. Pride will not. Faith casts anxieties on the Almighty life giving God. Pride will not. So the way to battle the unbelief of pride is to admit freely that you have anxieties, and to cherish tthe promise of future grace.

Our pride is conquered when we not only crucify ourselves to the cross but fall in awe of God's incredible love and future grace.

If you want a great read buy this book :)

A.I.M.

i logged on to aim today and i was disappointed because everytime i log on i'm always confronted with this same exact problem EVERYTIME i log on. The problem is that everytime i log on i try starting a conversation with someone who doesnt want to talk or doesnt want to talk to me.... so i now do not beleive in America instant messaging. because for me its not instant (sigh) oh well

End of School

School is pretty much over and i feel unaccomplished. I praise God because i think that God is trying to show me that i must decrease and to fill that void that i just created by decreasing myself by increasing Him. Pray that i use my Summer productively to grow and prepare for High School and for evangelism opportunties. Another thing I want to use this Summer for is to pray that God will increase my faith so that I can use my life more effectively and lovingly for God. For those who are reading this and are Christian i pray that you will also be able to use your summer to prepare yourself for another year of school. TAKE ALL YOUR CHANCES TO EVANGELISE, and be loving in your efforts to bring others to Christ.

Great Book

If Alex Hong reads this he might like it.

I just found a good book and its changing my life.If you are looking for a good read, look for Battling Unbelief by John Piper. I've been reading alot of John Piper lately, but i really enjoy his insights and encouraging words hes a really good writer/pastor/teacher.

The Past

The Past
Do you remember your first day inside of Suzanne Middle School’s grounds, and all of the feelings you got after those first steps, sights, and sounds. Whether those feelings were happiness or dread you began a legacy at school. You began a story that would not be just about you, but how you changed each other at school. I don’t know if you know this or not, but our lives are being challenged to change every single day. They are affected by family, friends, teachers, the internet, and even TV. Similarly we were changed by our long days at Suzanne Middle School. Whenever we got a fantastic grade on a test we were changed; whenever we were disappointed with a D on a homework assignment we were changed. Spending time with our friends after school changed us too. All the laughs we shared and friends we made will remain in our memories for the rest of our lives. We as students need to cherish these past events. These memories and encounters we’ve had with each other are like secret gifts that we take for granted. All of these encounters we experience affect us internally. It causes us to see things from new perspectives which help us to define who we are in the future. Creating friendships that helped turn us into the people we are now; having family that helped comfort us when problems arose in our lives; Listening to teachers that showed us how to achieve goals that seem so distant impossible were all things that helped create who you are. It doesn’t matter if we were changed in a good way or a bad way we just have to press on and thank God for our memories. Pierce Harris from the Atlanta Journal says “Memory is a child walking along a seashore. You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things.” The past at middle school was like us in our infant days. We were fed food by our teachers; we learned how to stand up on our own after countless falls; we learned how to walk forward with confidence. Suzanne was our baby crib for us to grow into stronger people who will overcome the trials and hardships of High School. I urge you class of 2009 to not forget about each other and the experiences we share because our life isn’t slowing down and it’s going to keep speeding by. Dr. Seuss says “You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.” We are no longer infants; we will now start having to make the “hard choices” in life. We have been prepared to face the world, and we will keep being prepared to face the world. So look back on our days at Suzanne and say” thank you for everything you gave me” and walk into a new chapter of your life.

Thanks kristine,kearney,ayesha,and other people for helping me write this speech. HOPEFULLY I GET PICKED BY SCHOOL!!!!?!?!!??!?! but please pray for me that i get picked cuz i really want to do this now

promotion

deaar oh deaar. i think i might do promo speech i dont know what to write about people who read this please give me suggestions in comment box. AAAAAHHHHHHHH scaaared

testing

testing sucked. lol i forgot alot of stuff. it was funny becuz i went throught the first half of the tests and i was just man this is so easy im gonna get a hundred percent... then the second half of the test rolled in and ....... yeaaah. but praise God that i was able to finish and still understand the test. overall i think i did well. schools almost over and i'm gonna go to high school. kid years are officially gone

School

If anyone is reading this I thank you because it shows you have an interest in my life :) Just wanted to say I am going to need plenty of prayer for all the stuff i'm going to have to deal with at school,but i know you guys deal with this too so i'll give you my prayers too. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. bye

Spring Break

This Spring Break has been more productive than other Spring Breaks. The reason why is because i have spent more time in the mornings devoted to God which has been a huge blessing because walking with God in the morning changes your day.

On Monday I did something.... I forgot. Okaaay next
On Tuesday I woke up early to play basketball with Alain Bonus which was lots of fun.We headed outside to my basketball court to warm up then we got in his car and went to Walnut Gym where unfortunately it was closed which made me pissed off because on their online schedule it said they were open. Later that night I was picked up by kuya Ian... or is it Eon... I was picked up by Julian Leong and we drove to Anaheim where we had Tuesday night fellowship at the Barret's residence. On our trip we went over my lines for Fall Into the Arms of Love(come see us on april 26th).
On Wedsnday i forgot what i did again. dont judge me
On Thursday.......
On Friday I went to Bible study and performed Fall Into the Arms of Love,met new friends, and enjoyed mcdonald's except for the CHERRY PIE.
On Saturday I went to rehearsal and got there late. then drove off with the Ben Ho and Jonathon Ho to pick up Andrew Ho and go to the cast/house party. Had lots of fun playing apples to apples where I got destroyed. Ate pizza hut,chicken wings,and drank chocolate coca-cola. Watched Kung-Fu Panda which was full of great scene changes. Got home and I received a brand new 16g iTouch. WOW.
On Sunday I woke up at 6:30 and texted Kristine and accidentally woke her up. Got picked up by Kuya Buzz for Sunday school, and got to the Church at 7:26. I destroyed my kuya ryan at taptap revenge 2 and then began sunday school where we learned how to be born again, and how we know we are born again. Then we enjoyed the Resurection Sunday service. The choir was great.

So this was my fantastic week. I hope you didnt have a boring week like mine. : )